Broken For Building

I remember driving to work on a cool fall morning feeling as though I had nothing left to contribute at work. I was spent and had poured out all “the stops” I knew and yet, it seemed as if I would need more. On that day, I had nothing and I as held on to the wheel tightly with my hands, I began to pray and share my heart with the Lord.

With tears slowly falling down my face, I began to tell the Lord, that I had no more to give. I was out of ideas and resources. My creativity seemed non-existent. I was out and yet more was required of me. And that terrified me. What if my suitcase of great ideas that I treasured and carried around with me had nothing else of value in it? What if my supply of creativity was running out?

What if I don’t have enough to get me to the next point?  You see, with my major needs, I am better at trusting the Lord because I have seen Him constantly meet my needs in those areas. But it is the unknown territory that scares me; the areas of my life that I haven’t ventured into yet are the ones that make me most nervous.  The areas that I’m used to reaching for in my own strength put me on edge when I can no longer reach for them with my power and strength.

In 1 Kings 17:8-16 , the widow was also at the end of her supply and yet she was being called upon to give to more. She had spent all her resources and she felt had no other place to turn for replenishment. Yet, she was instructed to invest and pour out anyway. She was instructed to exercise her faith anyway and allow God to act on her behalf. And I’m sure that allowing God to act was no easy feat because it means we are giving up the control we so desperately crave.

Perhaps you are worried about a shortage of something particular in life. Perhaps you are concerned about new ideas, eligible spouses, taking a bold step of faith, or pursuing the ministry God has placed in your heart. Whatever those concerns maybe, God always reminds me that His supply is never-ending, but in order to draw from His supply, we have to be willing to empty out what we do have in our possession. In His coffers we can be replenished, restored, and regenerated. God never intended us to reach the end of ourselves or to experience a drought in any area because He expects us to operate in the strength and might and power of God with the help of the Holy Spirit.

Lord, teach me to remember that Your supply never runs dry and that Your Word promises to supply all my needs according to Your riches in glory.  Remind me to depend on You to replenish the supply of whatever I need.